I think I’ve always been close to the Lord, I could feel His peace and joy within me at all times. However, recently, my faith has been challenged. I no longer feel His peace and joy. Instead, I feel sadness and depression. I find it hard to believe that Jesus even existed or that He died for me or that He rose again. Somehow I still pray to Him to forgive me of my sins, but that’s something I can’t really explain. I know this must be a test of my faith, but I’m really tired. I just want to be back with my Lord. I crave wholehearted belief in Jesus, I crave belief and assurance of my salvation, I crave being His daughter again, I want to believe that I am saved through Him.